I just want peace, love and adventure I want out of this world passion and to experience new things and be treated with respect and kindness😞 Its so hard to obtain when it took 4years to realize how mean and selfish my husband is. I feel so stupid and feel like I partially ruined my life. A part of me want to leave but I'm so emotionally and physically drained I don't know if I'm coming or going somertimes. He never appreciated me. I've been reading these columns from other men wishing they wives would do for them what ive done for him for years. Even though I know he doesn't deserve me how come I just can't walk away? How come I'm afraid to live without him? How come I care so much? Why can't I just walk out the door?