My name is Landon martinez. First time user. Where do I even begin. Married for 9 years (known each other for 14 years) and just found out my husband has been cheating on me with an ex from 12 years ago. He was dating me when they first met. Found old txts saying he wanted her but she left him and disappeared for a year and a half. They got back together by this time we were already engaged. They broke up she got engaged to someone else but ended breaking up with that guy and got together with my husband 3 years ago. I did find a txt from him telling her I’m hes soul mate and love of hes life. She backed off and he finally ended it. Well 3 months later he begged her to take him back and told her how he couldn’t forget her and had tried everything to forget her and how he needs her in he’s life even thou he knows eventually she needs to meet someone and get married etc.. I guess she’s now dating someone and it seems my husband is now sad and jealous. This has totally destroyed me and I don’t know what to do. I would forgive and forget if this was a one night stand but he’s with an ex who he’s known over 12 years now and even thou they break up they eventually get back together. He says he loves me but why is he constantly looking for her?