My lying husband just left. About five minutes ago. I will post my thoughts and recall what just happened through my post.
I went to my first class of the semester tonight. All went well, I really enjoyed it.
I came home, talked about some interesting things I learned tonight. H goes outside for a cigarette while I check my laptop. While he's gone I find my history has been deleted, and he installed a "Recover my filers" program. When he gets back inside I ask him WTF he was doing on my laptop and why he cleared my history. I said WTF is this? Why were you trying to restore my files?? (I just got this lap top YESTERDAY) He said it's because I deleted my history and he said he wanted to see it.
I said, no, I didn't delete my history. And even if I DID delete my history it's none of your damn business because you delete your phone's history ALL.THE.TIME.
So we got into a debate about that, going back and forth about going through each other's crap.I finally said it pisses me off because I'm not the one doing anything!
Fast forward about 5 or 10 minutes, I finally told him that I don't trust him and i -know- he is still talking to people online and has accounts. He says he knows I was watching him and that's why he made the accounts. I literally started laughing.
I asked him how many accounts he's made in the last month and he said like 30 (just to fck with me)
Because he knew I was watching him.
I said, oh really.... I JUST logged into your POF account TODAY. I just found out about it TODAY.
And for the record you guys, I've only been watching for about a week and he had no idea. Lol.
Anyways, I told him for the past week or so I've been contemplating what will happen as far as separation. I told him don't wory you will get to see your son. Come over and spend some time with him everyday, it's totally cool. He tells me he loves me and he can't live with out me.
Asked me if i want him to leave and I said I will never be able to trust him. He offered getting rid of his smartphone and not using internet anymore to win my trust back. Told him it's not gonna happen, I tried reconciling before and just got stabbed in the back and I can't take it anymore.
Fast forward some more, he left.
Here's to preparing for a long night of manipulation and stupid lies and denial. I don't want him to try slithering back into my life. I told him i'm not even happy anymore.
I'm half dead.
He just texted me. Here it goes.....
Edit to add:
He told me he wasn't even cheating.
I told him a lot of people consider it cheating and I don't like it one bit either. I said it's not my style and I asked him to stop before and he promised he would but he didn't. I don't like that either.
I told him I think he has an addiction. He got all.... weird. He said 'i'm just going to go you think i'm a total pervert or whatever" completely denying it.
And now: He is just driving around because there's no room at his parents house. All the bedrooms are full (his aunt and his brother are currently living in the extra rooms.)
I don't want to be by him. I don't want to let him be here because he has nowhere to go. I don't want him face to face with me trying to feed me stupid bul**** anymore!
I went to my first class of the semester tonight. All went well, I really enjoyed it.
I came home, talked about some interesting things I learned tonight. H goes outside for a cigarette while I check my laptop. While he's gone I find my history has been deleted, and he installed a "Recover my filers" program. When he gets back inside I ask him WTF he was doing on my laptop and why he cleared my history. I said WTF is this? Why were you trying to restore my files?? (I just got this lap top YESTERDAY) He said it's because I deleted my history and he said he wanted to see it.
I said, no, I didn't delete my history. And even if I DID delete my history it's none of your damn business because you delete your phone's history ALL.THE.TIME.
So we got into a debate about that, going back and forth about going through each other's crap.I finally said it pisses me off because I'm not the one doing anything!
Fast forward about 5 or 10 minutes, I finally told him that I don't trust him and i -know- he is still talking to people online and has accounts. He says he knows I was watching him and that's why he made the accounts. I literally started laughing.
I asked him how many accounts he's made in the last month and he said like 30 (just to fck with me)
Because he knew I was watching him.
I said, oh really.... I JUST logged into your POF account TODAY. I just found out about it TODAY.
And for the record you guys, I've only been watching for about a week and he had no idea. Lol.
Anyways, I told him for the past week or so I've been contemplating what will happen as far as separation. I told him don't wory you will get to see your son. Come over and spend some time with him everyday, it's totally cool. He tells me he loves me and he can't live with out me.
Asked me if i want him to leave and I said I will never be able to trust him. He offered getting rid of his smartphone and not using internet anymore to win my trust back. Told him it's not gonna happen, I tried reconciling before and just got stabbed in the back and I can't take it anymore.
Fast forward some more, he left.
Here's to preparing for a long night of manipulation and stupid lies and denial. I don't want him to try slithering back into my life. I told him i'm not even happy anymore.
I'm half dead.
He just texted me. Here it goes.....
Edit to add:
He told me he wasn't even cheating.
I told him a lot of people consider it cheating and I don't like it one bit either. I said it's not my style and I asked him to stop before and he promised he would but he didn't. I don't like that either.
I told him I think he has an addiction. He got all.... weird. He said 'i'm just going to go you think i'm a total pervert or whatever" completely denying it.
And now: He is just driving around because there's no room at his parents house. All the bedrooms are full (his aunt and his brother are currently living in the extra rooms.)
I don't want to be by him. I don't want to let him be here because he has nowhere to go. I don't want him face to face with me trying to feed me stupid bul**** anymore!