Hi I am new here. I cheated on my wife and now I feel worse and terrible. Thought of ending my life but I have two kids. The girl knew that I am married but still ended up with me and I didn't have the willpower to say no. Now I am banging my head and praying before God to forgive me. I love my wife and my kids. They are wonderful. I haven't told my wife. Perhaps she will forgive me but she will be bitter always. Don't know if I should dump my guilt on her.