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today is a bad day. as soon as I woke up I knew it was gonna be one of "those" days. smh
I have been doin the 180 for 4 weeks, its hard when you have children but i didnt talk to him at all until Thursday and that was an email I sent him to discuss our son, visitation, child support. He never responded, just popped up Saturday. He didnt speak to me just handed me some money hugged our son, gave his daughter some money and was gone in 5min flat. I was confused. In the email I said we need to DISCUSS a set schedule for visitation and agree to an amount for child support and then he just comes over (when he already knows he is not to ever pop up here) and hands me money. ok so is this the amount he will be givin me weekly, are we not discussing this? why didnt he ask to take his son? he always claims to missss him so much but i mean, I cant tell!
Soooooo I called him yesterday. bad move I know. we talk about 15min he tells me to call him back at 2 when he is off but i at least had sense enough not to. I am however, fighting not to call him today
what is wrong with me? a person leaves you- my house almost went into foreclosure, I had to file bankruptcy, he doesnt give me a dime, barely spends any time with my son, has barely even looked at me in months, we talk maybe once a month and yet, I still love him! I dont like the person he is right now but i still do love him. I try to think of the cheating, the way he abandoned me and hurt me so bad when I havent done anything but love him and take care of this house and our children, while he flaunts his new gf all over the place but still I dont hate him. smh
why is it that just seeing him for a few minutes brings a rush of feelings that no matter how much I pretend arent there- ARE
I have been doin the 180 for 4 weeks, its hard when you have children but i didnt talk to him at all until Thursday and that was an email I sent him to discuss our son, visitation, child support. He never responded, just popped up Saturday. He didnt speak to me just handed me some money hugged our son, gave his daughter some money and was gone in 5min flat. I was confused. In the email I said we need to DISCUSS a set schedule for visitation and agree to an amount for child support and then he just comes over (when he already knows he is not to ever pop up here) and hands me money. ok so is this the amount he will be givin me weekly, are we not discussing this? why didnt he ask to take his son? he always claims to missss him so much but i mean, I cant tell!
Soooooo I called him yesterday. bad move I know. we talk about 15min he tells me to call him back at 2 when he is off but i at least had sense enough not to. I am however, fighting not to call him today
what is wrong with me? a person leaves you- my house almost went into foreclosure, I had to file bankruptcy, he doesnt give me a dime, barely spends any time with my son, has barely even looked at me in months, we talk maybe once a month and yet, I still love him! I dont like the person he is right now but i still do love him. I try to think of the cheating, the way he abandoned me and hurt me so bad when I havent done anything but love him and take care of this house and our children, while he flaunts his new gf all over the place but still I dont hate him. smh
why is it that just seeing him for a few minutes brings a rush of feelings that no matter how much I pretend arent there- ARE