Hey everyone, I've never participated in anything online like this before however I kept finding myself back to this site in reference to Google searches I'd spend hours completing hoping to uncover the answers to all the issues in my marriage. So, I decided to join. I've been married for 15 years, we have one child who is 9. I am a very literal person and I love discussing topics like sex and attraction, desire and the possibility of non monogamy. I read everything I can find that I can learn more about my marriage and myself. I'm partnered with a man who could care less about any matter of the heart and if it weren't for the occasional loss of inhibition thanks to vodka and Adderall, I know this is sad, I would think he hasn't any capasity to love at all. I'm more confused than ever and I am hoping to find something although I'm not sure what I'm even looking to get out of joining this site. I honestly need connection. To be a part of something. I hope I find that here.