I don’t feel like I’m ever going to come through this crap. It’s 5.48 in the morning been awake since 4.30 I don’t want to keep fighting another day.Yes, there is definitely some symbolism there, but it is difficult for me to sort because I am not you and I know very little about your life. But, yes, the man in the wheel chair is symbolistic. It could represent something that requires sympathy/empathy. It could represent somebody/something that you want to avoid. It could represent something that could drag you back into misery. The watch with the black strap and black heart.... iiiiiiiuuuuuuuckkkkk! Black represents death but you do not need me to tell you that. Geez, you need to be dreaming about a tropical islands, sunsets and Mai Tai's! Go visit St. Mary's on the Isles of Scilly! If you have never been, it is beautiful! Give yourself some new things to dream about. My dreams get crazy and adventorous. A few years ago, I dreamed that myself and Chuck Norris were cops and we raided a drug house. Very cool and crazy dream! Considering where you are coming from, your life is going to get very exciting in the future. And you are going to look back on this mess and be so damned grateful that you are out of it and even wonder how you got into in the first place.