I have been married for almost 14 years. My husband and I have always had a somewhat complicated relationship. He cheated on me with a girl from Craig’s list when our daughter was 2 this was about 10 years ago. After the affair everything was ****. I am loyal to a fault and I value family more than anything, so I stayed angry and deeply damaged but I stayed faithfully loyal in the marriage. I have hate/loved him ever since that day. There are many other things messed up about our relationship but as of late he is moody,mean, and pretty much everything I do is wrong. His behavior causes my blood to boil and I have always had a problem with being on the defensive. We can’t communicate at all and I feel like I’m treading water hoping not to drown. I’m an honest person I work, I’m a good mother, reasonably attractive and a loyal partner, the thought of having a broken home fills my soul with the deepest sorrow I’ve known. I don’t want to be divorced it breaks my heart. I love my husband and would stay married miserable but always hopeful.