First time here. Long story short my husband and I got married only a year ago. A month later he had to go on location for a job and was gone 7 months. When he got home he was cold, distant and a completely different person. After a month of his crazy behavior I hacked his email to find he was having an emotional affair. I told him to choose and he said he did not want divorce and stopped contact with her (so I thought), and although he was home he was still cold and distant, and after months of trying to hold on, telling him I forgive him and want to work things out he left to stay with a friend. After a week or two he came home saying he wanted divorce, and when I agreed, the next day he apologized and said he wanted to work things out and that he was home. Then 24 hours later said he wasnt sure that he came home for the right reasons, that he was just afraid of loosing his money etc. He left again and I told him to file. He filed last week and now this week has been again giving me tid bits of hope of reconcilliation through the week, and then bam again he wants to proceed with divorce. Why does he keep doing this??? I still love him and as much as I want to just not talk to him again, Its so hard. For anyone who has gone through this why does he keep me hanging on??? Im loosing my mind. This is not the man I married.. what the hell happened??