I can totally relate to that 'hateful' feeling. It's like a never dying rage. I have developed IBS, that's after dealing with random anxiety and panic attacks. There is absolutely nothing wrong with me. Meaning, Ive had all sorts of tests and it's nothing serious, it's really just caused by a bunch of stress. And yes, the latest Dday was a little over a year ago, but ya know what, every time I hear, move on, I feel that it is insensitive to what I feel. And the reason for that is, that nothing has been resolved. I feel as though because he is not on the receiving end, its very easy to say, move on, most likely so I can screw you over again lol. And thats the bad part, That's why I am highly considering divorce, bc it's the only way to stop myself from being used again. If he can't stop himself, I can stop myself from continuing to be here. There are so many good people out there, it's ridiculous for us to be whining over some users and abusers.