OK, so, I wanna get your opinion my dear ladies. First year of college I was in love with this guy, and he was in love with me, but for some rediculous reason, we were all platonic. Difficult to explain. Then I left the country and we lost touch. In few years we started to talk again, however I was in relationship. Blah blah, this on and off friendship lasted for more than 10 years. After my divorce, I returned to my home country and we finally met. The stupid situation was that we were alone, and he kinda made a move, but nothing happened, we still just talked. What happens is that when we are with each other, we are trembling like little kids. He is the only man I cannot be confident with, I am just like a little girl, even flirting don't work. later on we talked about our old feelings, how we both were crazy about eachother, but I was working overseas, he was not ready for serious stuff, crap, crap, crap. Anyways, years passed since then too and I am married again. This time, I love my husband enormously, we have wonderful sex, trust is not even an issue. The only thing that bothers me is that every now and then I see my first love in a dream (never sexually). It's like I need to knwo he is OK, I need him to be around me, somehow. But, this only happens when I am on a business trip, away from my husband. This is so darn stupid, it drives me nuts!! Honest opinion is very welcome!