Hey guys , I’m Layla ! I have been confused on how love should be for a long time . I know my parents been married and still together for 40 years yet I can’t get a healthy relationship last past a year smh 🤦🏽♀️ I know that love is not suppose to hurt but it does sometimes and that’s life , but why it’s so hard to find ? When I do get in relationships I feel happy at first , confident in the person but then they start cheating and lying and I become upset and confused . However I’m in a relationship with someone I knew all they life and didn’t think they would hurt me , they already cheated and continue to be dishonest and I feel nothing I do surprises her .we only been together for 4 months , however I love fast and hard . Everything I want to do for her she had done already and so I feel defeated , I want to feel special to her by doing different but how can you have new experiences with someone who has done it all already ? She says she loves me and wants to marry me but she doesn’t treat me like it . I also feel like she still secretly loves her ex and that’s why her effort is barely minimal with me . What can I do ? Will I ever find real love ? Someone who treats me like they want me ? Please help I need advice !