D day oneweek ago today. I'm in so much pain. People say focus on you, but it's not possible. I can't stop dwelling on everything. I keep trying to meditate and can't even do that. I'm beyond broke so can't do anything, put my last £60 in the car for petrol. Am terrified I'll be homeless soon. H said he would continue to pay the rent but that hasn't happened. I imagine wining and dining his posOW is where his money is going. I am trying to be positive nd brave but I feel like I am falling apart. I'm sick of people telling me it will get better soon or you'll be stronger for this, or cheer up, it will all work out. Like, wtf? I'm so tired of everything.