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Since my H left I've been coping quite well, so I thought. But these past two weeks have been so hard. I guess I finally stopped believing my own bull****. I've been recently diagnosed with depression and even told the dr after completing an assessment form, that I knew it looked bad, but really I was coping well! Dissociation much? Finally feeling everything for the first time, no sugar coating, no delusional hope, and it has hit me like a ton of bricks.
Am struggling big time now, have to wait up to six months to see a counsellor as I'm too broke to pay.
Anyway, I wanted your advice. Do I hide this from H, and put out signals I'm doing great, moving on etc? I imagine this will push him further away, although he's pretty far away now. He left me six weeks ago. Ive got to hide it don't I? I think he still cares because he asks others about me, checks up on me on Facebook (which I've now deactivated as I can't stand all the happy people on there.) What should I do? I'm thinking of going dark and only coming out (ie going to events where I'll be photographed, or talked about) when I can be strong happy and confident, or at least fake it.
Am struggling big time now, have to wait up to six months to see a counsellor as I'm too broke to pay.
Anyway, I wanted your advice. Do I hide this from H, and put out signals I'm doing great, moving on etc? I imagine this will push him further away, although he's pretty far away now. He left me six weeks ago. Ive got to hide it don't I? I think he still cares because he asks others about me, checks up on me on Facebook (which I've now deactivated as I can't stand all the happy people on there.) What should I do? I'm thinking of going dark and only coming out (ie going to events where I'll be photographed, or talked about) when I can be strong happy and confident, or at least fake it.