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I would never have mine.
My marriage was complicated enough and even though I thought it would give me strength to leave, it never did. Just made me feel really bad about myself, for my husband and OM.
Did it have any mental side effect on you?
I felt kinda crazy. If he did not reply to my email, text - it hurt me deeply and I would judge myself based on it. Like if my worth was all about his response.
I would think how to surprise him, what to do on his birthday, how to write special email.
We do not live in same country. I would see him once a year and this was the time when I felt worst. I could not be with him as much as I wanted for obvious reasons and he was busy by visiting rest of the "world".
I felt something like anxiety, could not stop think about him.
It was very painful to have him so close and not being to able to see him.
Other times when he was really sick, I would worry very much.
He is diabetic with many complications because he did not care about himself from beginning.
I also knew about his ED long time before we were in deeper trouble than EA.
Anyway, if you have any experience with it, how was yours?
My marriage was complicated enough and even though I thought it would give me strength to leave, it never did. Just made me feel really bad about myself, for my husband and OM.
Did it have any mental side effect on you?
I felt kinda crazy. If he did not reply to my email, text - it hurt me deeply and I would judge myself based on it. Like if my worth was all about his response.
I would think how to surprise him, what to do on his birthday, how to write special email.
We do not live in same country. I would see him once a year and this was the time when I felt worst. I could not be with him as much as I wanted for obvious reasons and he was busy by visiting rest of the "world".
I felt something like anxiety, could not stop think about him.
It was very painful to have him so close and not being to able to see him.
Other times when he was really sick, I would worry very much.
He is diabetic with many complications because he did not care about himself from beginning.
I also knew about his ED long time before we were in deeper trouble than EA.
Anyway, if you have any experience with it, how was yours?