I’m desperate for any input . I’ve been married for thirty years 25 of them happy ! Not been intimate for the past five years husband confessed to having a porn addiction and promised he would sort it . I have suffered with depression low self esteem and attempted suicide a year ago as he refused to talk about our issues. This morning he left his phone open by mistake and he was on a gay porn web site. I confronted him and he’s trying to say it’s the first time he has looked at gay porn . I’m devastated his attitude is it’s my fault for looking on his phone. I’m so scared of loosing my home and can not see what my life will look like after divorce. Any advice will be much appreciated.