Ive been seperated from my wife for 2 years now and filed for divorce last November. I chose to leave the home & filed the divorce even though my wife wanted to wait. I was going through lots of child trauma issues & coping with bipolar at tge time so made some insane distorted decisions. I now realise its tge biggest mistake Ive ever made and have been having massive anxiety/panic attacks wondering how I arrived in this situation!! Disbelief that things have come this far. Are these normal feelings? Im in a very dark place full of guilt, regret, sense of loss & shame.