It does help me to hear of all the other stories out there, and I feel that I am not alone. Ever since he met her, he has turned on me and blaimed me for everything that has gone on his life. He tells me that everything is my fault. The past 7 years were torture for him, he would rather put a bullet in his head then get back together with me, etc. Then went on to say that I am a horrible mother, that his new wife will be a better mom to our son, that my whole family is dusgusting, that everyone he knows wants to kill me, etc. etc. And through all this, I still cry, am depressed, think about him all the time. I guess my co-dependancy on him is still going strong. I can’t stop obsessing over some man who clearly does not care. He told me he check out 5 years ago and should have left a long time ago. Why do I still care? I feel rejected and hurt. I feel so bad for my son. I wanted the "family" so badly, that I lost who I was. Before I met him, I was completely independant, purchased my own condo, had money, had a fantastic job, tons of friends, freedom to do what I wanted when I wanted to. This is a great opportunity to start all over. I can work on me now. I can hopefully, eventually find someone who wants to spend the rest of our lives together, with no drama. Just friendship, loyalty, love, emotion, etc. I just want the fundamentals in my next relationship.
