Your post shouts fickle. First you have the unplanned pregnancy and the abortion (and to be honest it was likely a good thing, as you were not ready for the responsibility of a child, neither was the father).
Then you have a new baby, who is now EIGHT year old girl. She has had your dh in HER life for FIVE of those EIGHT years. You say he is a perfect husband, etc. Ok, GOOD.
You said you were confused.
You are very confused you are :smthumbup: about that!
You are also wanting to change men like one changes underwear. When you get bored and "rainyday" feeling, you start to focus on this fantasy of "what could have been".
The above means you are fickle.
Webster's: Fickle: marked by lack of steadfastness, constancy, or stability : given to erratic changeableness.
You did not go on that photo and see a happy man and a baby, you saw an OPPORTUNITY. And when your marriage does not feel right, you don't know how to work on it, so saw it as an opportunity to look elsewhere and live a fantasy.
I would advise you to get on your knees and pray to God your dh will take you back, and IF he does, learn to be a good person and wife.
P.S. HINT: If the dude you kissed had no ISSUE with kissing a married woman...then YOU should have red flags going off. He is hovering in the dirt bag category. You hook up with this dude and you'll be on here in three years crying about how he cheated on you....guaranteed.
Then you have a new baby, who is now EIGHT year old girl. She has had your dh in HER life for FIVE of those EIGHT years. You say he is a perfect husband, etc. Ok, GOOD.
You said you were confused.
You are very confused you are :smthumbup: about that!
You are also wanting to change men like one changes underwear. When you get bored and "rainyday" feeling, you start to focus on this fantasy of "what could have been".
The above means you are fickle.
Webster's: Fickle: marked by lack of steadfastness, constancy, or stability : given to erratic changeableness.
You did not go on that photo and see a happy man and a baby, you saw an OPPORTUNITY. And when your marriage does not feel right, you don't know how to work on it, so saw it as an opportunity to look elsewhere and live a fantasy.
I would advise you to get on your knees and pray to God your dh will take you back, and IF he does, learn to be a good person and wife.
P.S. HINT: If the dude you kissed had no ISSUE with kissing a married woman...then YOU should have red flags going off. He is hovering in the dirt bag category. You hook up with this dude and you'll be on here in three years crying about how he cheated on you....guaranteed.
