I'm a 20 year old guy. Ya ya I know we suck at communicating. Anyway, I've been with my girlfriend for 3 years, we're in love, everything is great except my lack of communication. I'm not open enough with my feelings and I find it hard to apologize. I only apologize when I mean it, and it is rare. I know she needs it, but I can never do it unless I really mean it. I find it hard to give her what she needs while staying true to myself. Most of you would call it an ego, but I don't wanna lie to myself. I don't get angry when shes upset while I don't agree that I did anything wrong, I always try to talk about perception, but she just needs a hug and an apology. I try and I try and I try and I can't figure out how to do the right thing because the deciding factory is always staying true to myself. Is hypnosis the only cure? I feel better after writing this, but now I just feel guilty for feeling good because I didn't fix the problem yet.