Day 3... I started the day off ok, I had had a good night with my kids the night before and realised we were better off without him but 24 hrs on I'm missing the simply things like routine of my evening. I would usually be cooking his dinner now but instead it ia another women doing that for him instead. We would then sit down and have a coffee together and have a chat. I know I can never have these things back but I wish so much I could.Today is day 2. I just want to have my old life back. I try so hard to hate him. My kids say they can only remember the bad times with him and I can only remember the good. I wish I was like the kids and it would be so much easier.
I think for me the frustrating thing is he was the awful person but he got to make the choice to walk away and end our marriage when it should of me saying to him to go.
I feel like my biggest heartache at the moment is that he rejected me for another women he had only known for 4 months. I wish there was switch to turn my brain off and stop thinking of him and her together.