I've been married for four years but were separated for two years. There are so many conflicts between me and my husband and one is his infedility.
When my son was born, I suffered from post-natal depression and I really felt alone that time. I've been so jealous with my husband's friends and work. Plus, I felt I am the only one handling the marriage and parenthood. While he's so busy in the limelight, I am in the dark room. He also ran in the arms of other women who tried to comfort him when we quarrel. Whenever he is so angry, he would ask for separation (since divorce is never allowed in our country).
When we separated, I tried to build a life for me and my son and tried to ignore him whenever he tried to have me back. He always hurt my feelings everytime we're in good terms. But eventually, I still go back to him together with my son. Now that we're together again, I am dealing with my previous hurts and problems again. The house that we're living today has been the house of his many mistresses, who acted and expecting to be his wife. He told me that no women ever stayed in this house, but I was the one who cleaned the house and I found a lot of women's facial creams, lovenotes, pictures and ladie's shoe boxes. Its been very hard for me to deal with the "bad spirits" in the house. He always lied to me. I left the life I once tried to build without him and now I felt so weak to start all over again once our marriage failed again.
I can see that he doesn't want us to leave again. But he cannot take his hands off women. And he always hurt my feelings and make me look like a fool. I am trying to stop looking at his emails, friendster and handphones so that I won't be hurt with what I'm going to see. Whenever I saw "bad spirits" in the house, I just keep quiet and kept it for myself so we won't quarrel again.
I want somebody to share this. Please do advice me. Actually, I do not trust that my husband will be ever faithful to me. But I really want this marriage to work out.
When my son was born, I suffered from post-natal depression and I really felt alone that time. I've been so jealous with my husband's friends and work. Plus, I felt I am the only one handling the marriage and parenthood. While he's so busy in the limelight, I am in the dark room. He also ran in the arms of other women who tried to comfort him when we quarrel. Whenever he is so angry, he would ask for separation (since divorce is never allowed in our country).
When we separated, I tried to build a life for me and my son and tried to ignore him whenever he tried to have me back. He always hurt my feelings everytime we're in good terms. But eventually, I still go back to him together with my son. Now that we're together again, I am dealing with my previous hurts and problems again. The house that we're living today has been the house of his many mistresses, who acted and expecting to be his wife. He told me that no women ever stayed in this house, but I was the one who cleaned the house and I found a lot of women's facial creams, lovenotes, pictures and ladie's shoe boxes. Its been very hard for me to deal with the "bad spirits" in the house. He always lied to me. I left the life I once tried to build without him and now I felt so weak to start all over again once our marriage failed again.
I can see that he doesn't want us to leave again. But he cannot take his hands off women. And he always hurt my feelings and make me look like a fool. I am trying to stop looking at his emails, friendster and handphones so that I won't be hurt with what I'm going to see. Whenever I saw "bad spirits" in the house, I just keep quiet and kept it for myself so we won't quarrel again.
I want somebody to share this. Please do advice me. Actually, I do not trust that my husband will be ever faithful to me. But I really want this marriage to work out.