New to the forum. Recently divorced, she moved away. It seems that she's dead. No contact with her at all. I'm at the point of rage, I berate people that have no idea what the hell I'm going through. I dream about her. I listen to stupid idiotic songs that remind me of her. I'm torturing myself and other family members around me. I'm stuck and I don't know what to do. We had 18 years of marriage. I put the blame on me and her. She's moved on, and I'm in hell and at my wits end. I was miserable with her, and more miserable without her. We were supposed to grow old together. 18 years down the damn tubes in one stroke of a pen. Any suggestions ? Any hope ? I have good days and bad days. I guess today is a bad one. I just don't know where to turn.