If I am vague right now, accept my apology. What I want to apologize for I may not be able to fully go into here but those of you who read my threads and interacted with them yesterday know. My postings were not a manipulative ploy. However, some unfair frustrations were expressed and for that I apologize. I was seriously trying to determine whether I have a place here on the boards even though I'm bipolar II and cheated on my husband and for those and several other reasons caused a marriage to collapse after 20 years. This is something I still mourn although it has been made clear to me that it's over. Thank you for reading and if you can understand these circumstances or would like to interact with me, I welcome your responses. Again, I'm sorry for being so vague. I've had a lot of personal info out there for a little while and this is a new, sometimes uncomfortable experience.