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I'm not gonna get anymore from WS. He failed a poly. Still won't admit and at this point he's trickle truthed me so much even if he did tell me the full truth I'm not so sure I would ever feel I got everything.
He's been out of the house for eleven nights. He still wants to R.
I've been advised to close the door on the past, accept he cheated and try to start fresh with him. Accept I'll never know everything. He has told me he loves me, is sorry and has asked for my forgiveness to which I have replied what am I forgiving?!?
Has anyone done this?!? Just accepted the fact you will never really know everything and try to improve what you currently have? I had like a brick hit me the other sleepless night - I WILL NEVER KNOW. I could beg until the end of the earth.
We're gonna try counseling together again on Monday. I have been going alone. And finally after a year of resisting I broke down and got put on meds. I'm so depressed, I just can't function anymore.
I just feel screwed regardless what I do. I'm gonna be tortured with doubts if we divorce or not. This seems to be my curse for the rest of my life. Hell on earth.
We've both contacted lawyers. It's gonna totally bite for me and the kids. He's come and taken the kids off a couple times and it hurt like crazy. I did not want this life.
He's been out of the house for eleven nights. He still wants to R.
I've been advised to close the door on the past, accept he cheated and try to start fresh with him. Accept I'll never know everything. He has told me he loves me, is sorry and has asked for my forgiveness to which I have replied what am I forgiving?!?
Has anyone done this?!? Just accepted the fact you will never really know everything and try to improve what you currently have? I had like a brick hit me the other sleepless night - I WILL NEVER KNOW. I could beg until the end of the earth.
We're gonna try counseling together again on Monday. I have been going alone. And finally after a year of resisting I broke down and got put on meds. I'm so depressed, I just can't function anymore.
I just feel screwed regardless what I do. I'm gonna be tortured with doubts if we divorce or not. This seems to be my curse for the rest of my life. Hell on earth.
We've both contacted lawyers. It's gonna totally bite for me and the kids. He's come and taken the kids off a couple times and it hurt like crazy. I did not want this life.