Too late Hope.

Sorry. I'll go get something now.
Um... Daisy, I'll try to be quick. I have a thread but i'm lost in the pages right now.
Together for 11 yrs. Married 6. 3 yro Daughter. I had been mean to her in responses, not giving her enough attention ( I had, but not EVERY time seh needed it) had a temper. Wasn't as supportive as I could've been... etc. She says I was controlling, but it wasn't that bad.
3 months ago we started getting volunteers for our Haunted House. 3-4 days before the "boys" showed up, she came to me in the room and said "I love you so much, I'm so happy. You better not ever leave me I wouldn't know what to do" almost word for word.
Then the boys showed up and they were cute, 19 and 20yros and ever since then.. seh gravitated towards them. I got angry at how she never spent time with me and was always hugging and flirting with them. YES, I flirted with a girl as well, BUT, I stopped mine and asked her to stop her flirting. She didn't. We ahd a fight. a week or so later she slept with the 19 yro. twice. She also got high the first time and got drunk.
Now, OM is gone. GONE GONE... (no I didn't kill him, I let him live after I confronted him) He's moved 300 miles away. Broke and can't get here. They stopped txting. But she says she's not happy now and wants a new life.
I think she's gotten a taste of the grass on the other side and wants a new life. BUT< She acts like she doesn't know if what she's doing is the right choice and even says it. But she says shes not happy. Swears there's not another man / woman and just wants to be alone. I couldn't leave her alone so she asked for a Divorce.
Enough? Now we're having to move out (we lived at the haunt) the haunt failed because of this. Over $36k invested... GONE. No hot rods, no cars, no land... nothing left. She tells me she loves me and if i don't IRRITATE THE SH.T OUT OF HER as she says... we hug, we hold hands at times etc. She said she loves the time with me but she does NOT want to talk about "us" ...at all. Whatsoever.