I just need some insight....I have been with my husband for 9 years, just had our 8 year anniversay. I have a daughter from a previous marriage and we have 2 together. When we first got together my husband would drink sometimes every weekend but not usually. It was usually every couple weekends. I got pregant fast and would kind of get upset the closer it got to the end that he might be too drunk to dive me to the dr. This kind of drinking went on for the first 2-3 years. Ive never been a huge fan of his friends, it just seems thats what they always want to do is drink and he obviously cant say no to them. So after the first 2-3 years he gradually got the point where he was drinking every weekend and occasionally during the week. And again held that for a few years, now its every day and has been for the last 2-3 years. Ive tried telling him how bad it hurts me and that I dont think its ok for him to make the kids think this behavior is ok. I can and do go months without drinking and its hardly ever in front of my kids. We have had many fights over this, I have almost left and he begs me to stay. Ive told him his drinking will make me leave him someday. After we get into these fights he'll cut down a little until i guess he thinks im over it then right back to it. Im so emotionally numb that I dont even care anymore. Ill go shopping after work by myself for hours just so I dont have to be home. I know there has to be some part of me that still loves him or I would be gone right? Plus i dont want to break up the family and rip everything apart. Its just easier together just not happier. Am I just over reacting to all of this???