I'm not really sure where to start explaining whats going on so I'll give it my best shot. I'll start by saying that I've been clinically diagnosed with depression and struggle with it more than I'd like to admit. I've been having a really tough time lately as it seems like my husband has pulled away from me and isn't as affectionate as he used to be. We aren't intimate very often, and if we are it is because I have initiated it. I was talking with him last night after we'd had a couple of drinks and he mentions that he would be ok with me sleeping with other people as long as I told him who it was first. I was very obviously sad about that, and he tells me not to take it so personally. That he has never been a clingy possessive person.
I have started to wonder about our relationship because of such things as I mentioned above. He was also caught talking to other women through email and text a few months ago. He had been talking to women the entire time we've been dating. He has stopped since the last time I caught him and I now monitor his email address and have permission to look at his phone whenever I feel the need.
I worry that my depression has caused me to be an unstable and bad wife. I feel the need to leave the relationship even though he insists he loves me very much. I still love him but I don't want to go to bed crying every night feeling like I have no one to talk to.
My question is, am I being too sensitive about the whole thing? Has anyone else dealt with someone who thought like this?
I have started to wonder about our relationship because of such things as I mentioned above. He was also caught talking to other women through email and text a few months ago. He had been talking to women the entire time we've been dating. He has stopped since the last time I caught him and I now monitor his email address and have permission to look at his phone whenever I feel the need.
I worry that my depression has caused me to be an unstable and bad wife. I feel the need to leave the relationship even though he insists he loves me very much. I still love him but I don't want to go to bed crying every night feeling like I have no one to talk to.
My question is, am I being too sensitive about the whole thing? Has anyone else dealt with someone who thought like this?