Background...
So things have been extremely tense, and we are a few months into what is unfortunately appearing to be false R
I've turned a corner in my life since she cheated, well the lies mostly to be honest, it's been hell, but in a way the best thing that ever happened to me, outside of the 'marriage' anyway (health, work, friends, MY KIDS, everything, is through the roof good, and getting better, and better)
Anyway I'm standing up to her now, taking back control and back to my alpha, I've always been that way, First 4 years of our 8 together but got lost somewhere along the way, and went ****ing unbelievably soft..Ended up a crying mess, at the end of it..
She isn't responding well with having to properly commit, as I'm back to how I was years back, and it's a culture shock she isn't taking lightly, I've tried eveything to 'help her see' (I know that's wrong) I can honestly say I've tried everything I can think of. I've made myself clear that if she wants me, she needs to want me or **** off, she did cheat after all, and lie through her teeth, took advantage of me sums it up. And she isn't being very nice
I believe in what was once there, but I'm done trying to help her come back, I'm looking after me and my kids.
I'm finnacially not sitting very well, we've always been living week to week on wages, and I have debt they may even restrict me get a rental.
I'll be able to live a lot better off without her screwing me over all the time, but right now I'm stuck. And I'm still hoping the R will get better, but it's just so last straw.
We had a conflict earlier, she tried everything, all the things that would usually get me back in line, I don't know weather intentionally or not, but it's sort of her normal cycle, I can see it all unfolding. I'm leaning toward not, as it was much more sincere, I believe she does want it, somewhere in that. I always will, but she's had enough chance to show me. I didn't take it tonight, and the kids had to listen to her crying while they tried to sleep again, I won't miss that.
Advice needed..
What to do in the tomorrow...
I don't know what to do in the morning, I'm on the couch and she's asleep. I don't have enough to really do much, and don't know if I should take the kids out first thing, limp through the day...
Or wait till the kids get up, make em some brekkie, and go and demand the bed I paid for back as I need to catch up on sleep, after a long week at work, and dealing with all this....
I have a mate that I need to see around lunchtime, and I could just spend the rest of the day out with myself for a change.
I don't have much money left, and I really need to be making sure I have an emergency incase she goes completely feral again fund.
I have no family here, and friends aren't a great help.
There's a lot of I's there, but the children are fine, They know me properly and will always be looked after to the maximum my human ability. It's rough on them but I am satisfied that it's only better from here for them.
I have legal wheels, and my balls back but I'm stuck with this one.
So things have been extremely tense, and we are a few months into what is unfortunately appearing to be false R
I've turned a corner in my life since she cheated, well the lies mostly to be honest, it's been hell, but in a way the best thing that ever happened to me, outside of the 'marriage' anyway (health, work, friends, MY KIDS, everything, is through the roof good, and getting better, and better)
Anyway I'm standing up to her now, taking back control and back to my alpha, I've always been that way, First 4 years of our 8 together but got lost somewhere along the way, and went ****ing unbelievably soft..Ended up a crying mess, at the end of it..
She isn't responding well with having to properly commit, as I'm back to how I was years back, and it's a culture shock she isn't taking lightly, I've tried eveything to 'help her see' (I know that's wrong) I can honestly say I've tried everything I can think of. I've made myself clear that if she wants me, she needs to want me or **** off, she did cheat after all, and lie through her teeth, took advantage of me sums it up. And she isn't being very nice
I believe in what was once there, but I'm done trying to help her come back, I'm looking after me and my kids.
I'm finnacially not sitting very well, we've always been living week to week on wages, and I have debt they may even restrict me get a rental.
I'll be able to live a lot better off without her screwing me over all the time, but right now I'm stuck. And I'm still hoping the R will get better, but it's just so last straw.
We had a conflict earlier, she tried everything, all the things that would usually get me back in line, I don't know weather intentionally or not, but it's sort of her normal cycle, I can see it all unfolding. I'm leaning toward not, as it was much more sincere, I believe she does want it, somewhere in that. I always will, but she's had enough chance to show me. I didn't take it tonight, and the kids had to listen to her crying while they tried to sleep again, I won't miss that.
Advice needed..
What to do in the tomorrow...
I don't know what to do in the morning, I'm on the couch and she's asleep. I don't have enough to really do much, and don't know if I should take the kids out first thing, limp through the day...
Or wait till the kids get up, make em some brekkie, and go and demand the bed I paid for back as I need to catch up on sleep, after a long week at work, and dealing with all this....
I have a mate that I need to see around lunchtime, and I could just spend the rest of the day out with myself for a change.
I don't have much money left, and I really need to be making sure I have an emergency incase she goes completely feral again fund.
I have no family here, and friends aren't a great help.
There's a lot of I's there, but the children are fine, They know me properly and will always be looked after to the maximum my human ability. It's rough on them but I am satisfied that it's only better from here for them.
I have legal wheels, and my balls back but I'm stuck with this one.