hopelessness

As the title describes/asks. My daughter of 3 years old says only single words, out of context, out of meaning. She babbles alot, but in a completely different tone of voice and no recognizable words. She just decided to poop in her diaper, take off, smear it against the floor, laughing and...

Honestly...I'm so done with life. I don't see the point with going on living. The only reason I haven't killed myself is because it would hurt my mom and people close to me too much and I couldn't do that to them. Hence I'm still alive suffering. I just don't see what is worth living for...