arranged marriage unhappy

It might sound strange but i had an arranged marriage... my husband and i didn't know each other before the wedding, we were forced to be together so i'll leave you to imagine how bad our relationship must be. After almost 2 years of marriage and having our first child i could say that i...

Have never posted anything on any site before, just hoping to come across similarly tortured souls. Got married at 19 (arranged) now in late 30s, have never been attracted to wife and poor woman has put up with a lot. 3 kids and an unforgiving culture = no easy answer. Lots of blame, guilt...